Trying to be less fat, but with Covid

 For me - I failed to have the will power to do this! 

Also I have two fonts on the go. This is Quicksand. 

Also I have two fonts on the go. This is Poppins.

I'm not sure which one is my go to? I like both because of the round 'a'. 

I just was leaving a comment on Joy's blog lamenting Covid eating. It has sapped my strength, energy and renewed efforts that I was doing so well with. 

This was my comment. 

Joy, Your chicken soup looks so delicious. My soups never look as good! Your chicken sizzler tea sounds tasty too. Sadly due to the covid, I've stuffed all the meat I had in the freezer and have been on beans on toast and grabbed things from the fridge when IU have fancied it. A baby bel here, a sliverof ham there. Yesterday I made the effort and took some fruit from the freezer, put it in my pretty glass dish and had it with thick greek yogurt,. I so enjoyed it. Tea was an easy and not too bad tastewise but struggled to get through it and didn't have extra veg SW lasagne frozen meal from Iceland. The prices of those are creeping up but I find them so convenient to have in. I missed class due to Covid so have fallen back into the secret eating mode. ( I might just carry this comment on as a blog post today! )

Here I am carrying it on! 

Her chicken soup DID look delicious - I wish she could post me some haha. 

It's here - Joy's weight loss food blog. - though the people who may read this very probably already read her blogs. 

I did take some fruit out of the freezer and have done so again today. It was soothing on my throat too and felt lovely to eat. This fancy little sundae dish was one of two I bought so cheap from a factory shop about ten years ago. One broke years ago but this one goes strong. 

I sometimes have a look see in the charity shops for somthing similar because it really does make fruit and yogurt look vair glamorous. I keep saying Im going to buy one of those heart shaped bowls too because I think soup looks fab in them haha. 

I am trying to drink more clear liquids today and flush this clovid out of me. I hate it. It's wearing me down. 

I will not self medicate with biscuits and crisps as I did on Monday. I only end up feeling even worse. 

Back soon. 

November 3rd evening

 Well thank you lovely friends for your comments. 

I’ve not strayed too far from the edge today! 

I started the day just after my post with a mile walk round the field. Here’s the before and after. I hosed her off in the garden before I let her in! 

I’d done 401 steps just getting ready to go out! 

Note my purple tub with my anti cat defence! I’ve cats on both sides to contend with and they are a bloody nuisance for using my garden as a toilet. So in the tub are my newly planted spring bulbs - some are already sprouting?! And they are wooden skewers designed to prick cat bottoms attempting to squat! So 

far so good! 

Got home, hosed her off in the garden because she was FILTHY and was pleased to see 2000 steps rocked up. 

Spurred on, I avoided all staffroom goodies and enjoyed a bowl of lettuce celery and tomato chopped up with a small jacket potato from my freezer with prawns in a 2 syn bit of sauce. Delicious. 

Tea was chicken curry which you can't see but I halved the rice and had it on a heap of steamed sweetheart cabbage. Filling and warm. 

No bread as promised. The total steps for the day = 13, 564 which claims to be 5.2miles!

I did have a sliver of cake. Will try harder today ( Friday ) 

Had a traumatic evening which I'll blog on 28 which is why this is being posted Friday morning. 

November and a moan.

 

Don't read if moany, self pitying, lemon suckers bug you! 

Well, went to class on the first. Paid for the Christmas group meal deposit. Got on the scales. 3.5lbs off -a bit to go and I took stock. I've been up and down the same half a stone now since April. Ridiculous of me to get stuck so! Even though I can congratulate myself on STILL being a lot lighter than when I rejoined group this time last year, I still am nowhere near where I want to be. 

SO why can I not do this? 

What is wrong with me? I know the science. I know the facts. I know that sugar and sweeteners cripple my joints. I am a fairly intelligent being. I am a good cook and am easily capable of adapting any recipe. My fridge is FULL of good wholesome stuff. I am just not choosing to eat wisely. Last night for instance. Nobody wanted anything much and I was glad really as I was tired. We had good old fashioned beans on toast. I had an expensive but had been reduced to half price artisan sourdough loaf that we used. For bread avoiders for reasons, sourdough is the most acceptable option. I had two slices toasted and we three adults shared two standard cans of baked beans - I had the smallest portion. Which doesn''t sound so bad BUT I absolutely slathered on the butter! Willingly, willfully, knowingly. 

There was chocolate swiss roll cake for afters - a half price colin the caterpillar from M and S. I only really had the crumbs from cutting their slices. But crumbs still hold calories and sugar! 

So today is Thursday. I have some beautiful prawns to eat today - not decided if I will have them cooked with onions and paprika for tea or have them in a salad bowl at lunch. Maybe at tea time. I am making a leftovers beef cottage pie from the brisket I cooked other day ( great again actually with plenty of speedy veg and only a tiny potato - but I DID then eat my own yorkshires ). I will then have the leftovers from that for my lunch with a portion of veg. We will all eat the same tea on Friday. A SW friendly chicken curry is planned. 

They say at class planning is the key. I am full of plans! Just also full of stupidity because that is all it is. I am a grown woman and I have no idea how I managed to lose weight every single week without a single gain or maintain in that full year August 2017 to August 2018. 

I have turned into one of the people I used to sit and judge internally week in week out for being at group and not going anywhere with it. I am quite a horrible person for that. A despicable trait. I depise myself for it.  Serves me right. I am now that woman. Arrrgh. 

Even writing it all down here probably won't make a difference! Maybe I should quit class for a bit? Maybe I should quit with the excuses and just do what I know works! 

Maybe a mini daily goal to include a 'do more' and 'eat less' suggestion! I've got very lazy and sluggish and I've certainly been eating more!

Right off for a bit of body magic - a schlep round the field with the dog. 

Goal for today - hit 10,000 steps, eat NO BREAD.

Will be back with the truth tomorrow. Or maybe I should try a post every night. Hmmmm will have a think. 

TTBLF Rachel x at least a try is better than nothing!