Don't read if moany, self pitying, lemon suckers bug you!
Well, went to class on the first. Paid for the Christmas group meal deposit. Got on the scales. 3.5lbs off -a bit to go and I took stock. I've been up and down the same half a stone now since April. Ridiculous of me to get stuck so! Even though I can congratulate myself on STILL being a lot lighter than when I rejoined group this time last year, I still am nowhere near where I want to be.
SO why can I not do this?
What is wrong with me? I know the science. I know the facts. I know that sugar and sweeteners cripple my joints. I am a fairly intelligent being. I am a good cook and am easily capable of adapting any recipe. My fridge is FULL of good wholesome stuff. I am just not choosing to eat wisely. Last night for instance. Nobody wanted anything much and I was glad really as I was tired. We had good old fashioned beans on toast. I had an expensive but had been reduced to half price artisan sourdough loaf that we used. For bread avoiders for reasons, sourdough is the most acceptable option. I had two slices toasted and we three adults shared two standard cans of baked beans - I had the smallest portion. Which doesn''t sound so bad BUT I absolutely slathered on the butter! Willingly, willfully, knowingly.
There was chocolate swiss roll cake for afters - a half price colin the caterpillar from M and S. I only really had the crumbs from cutting their slices. But crumbs still hold calories and sugar!
So today is Thursday. I have some beautiful prawns to eat today - not decided if I will have them cooked with onions and paprika for tea or have them in a salad bowl at lunch. Maybe at tea time. I am making a leftovers beef cottage pie from the brisket I cooked other day ( great again actually with plenty of speedy veg and only a tiny potato - but I DID then eat my own yorkshires ). I will then have the leftovers from that for my lunch with a portion of veg. We will all eat the same tea on Friday. A SW friendly chicken curry is planned.
They say at class planning is the key. I am full of plans! Just also full of stupidity because that is all it is. I am a grown woman and I have no idea how I managed to lose weight every single week without a single gain or maintain in that full year August 2017 to August 2018.
I have turned into one of the people I used to sit and judge internally week in week out for being at group and not going anywhere with it. I am quite a horrible person for that. A despicable trait. I depise myself for it. Serves me right. I am now that woman. Arrrgh.
Even writing it all down here probably won't make a difference! Maybe I should quit class for a bit? Maybe I should quit with the excuses and just do what I know works!
Maybe a mini daily goal to include a 'do more' and 'eat less' suggestion! I've got very lazy and sluggish and I've certainly been eating more!
Right off for a bit of body magic - a schlep round the field with the dog.
Goal for today - hit 10,000 steps, eat NO BREAD.
Will be back with the truth tomorrow. Or maybe I should try a post every night. Hmmmm will have a think.
TTBLF Rachel x at least a try is better than nothing!
You have just put all our own thoughts into one post, we don't need diets or help, we know what has to be done, eat less move more. BUT like you we add a bit of this or that, we nibble on something else, I look at my steps and shrugs my shoulders............ At least you understand what you are doing, we are coming to the season of everything, so much temptation, you can do it!
ReplyDeleteIt's like something inside us (or a little red devil sitting on our shoulder) is trying to sabotage us isn't it? I know only too well!! Mini daily goal sounds good.
ReplyDeleteI plan my socks off but still it goes up and down like a yoyo. I have no answers, I wish I did, but I just keep going and hope because I just cannot imagine giving up. xx
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